So I just started reading a new book that Daddum's Pilot friend's wife (whew what a mouthful..) lent me and I just wanted to say its totally awesome. I am only about 50 pages into it and already I feel like it is shaking the dust off of my lackluster wifehood thus far for both the Lord and Erik. Recently alot of my views have changed in that I am learning that in order to be truly peaceful I need to REALLY give honor and glory to God each day in all things all I do. Well a huge part (if not all) of what I do is to be the homemaker of this house. And I LOVE IT. But it took me awhile, some women take and excel at it very naturally and it is with slight embarrassment that I say I was not one of those women. It took me over a year to just adapt to it but really it took YEARS to EXCEL (in some fashion or another) at it. I feel like I am in a better place now but I DO NOT want to become complacent in my role(s).
Now am I the homemaker with a spotless house, neatly dressed children, freshly bathed dog and dinner on the table with my size 4 or 6 apron and high heels on...pssshhh...yeah right....I wish...well no not really...I don't. But I AM the housewife with love in my heart and Godly passion for doing what I feel the Lord is calling me to do everyday all day. Inevitably there is some chore that I do not get to on a daily basis but thats sokay, I don't sweat it (as much...hey I am human right?). I am okay with it, its just laundry or dishes or dusting, whatevs...I will get to it. I want a bigger family, I need to make some changes to myself first, for mostly health reasons before our family expands but it will happen. I feel soo much more relief and motivation than ever before. I don't think that this book is 100% of the reason why I feel so enlightened but its very refreshing to be reading something and involving myself in something with a NEW like minded group of women. I think I am boarding this "train" later in life than I would have liked (I hate to feel like I am behind the power curve) but at the end of the day it was never my decision to make right?? I am where I am because this is where I am supposed to be...and I will continue to push forward.... pretty cool right?? Thanks Mama G!!!